There Will Be A Day...

God has a plan for us all, it says so all through out the Bible. If you are a follower of Christ, He will guide and lead you, He will make your path the one that you’re supposed to be on if you let Him. I have had a hard time lately with this, cause that battle between what you feel God wants for you, and what He actually wants from you are usually two totally different things. I’m trying to come to terms with how the silence can be a blessing, the silence can be a cure for what aches me. I am having a hard time dealing with the silence. I was so used to having noise in my life, so used to the phone going off, the IM going off, always having someone around to talk with, no matter what. Yet here I sit, alone in my kitchen, in utter and complete silence.

This silence is tearing me apart, it is forcing me to think of things that I would have never thought of before. How decisions that I made in the past, right or wrong, need to be dealt with, and that as much as I would of liked to believe I was a Christian, I really wasn’t. I was living a lie, I was playing the game, so to speak, of Christianity, I was lost in a sea of faces, just another face in the crowd. No matter how much I prayed, or went to church, my heart wasn’t in it, I took control of my own life, instead of allowing myself to be led to places I am supposed to be. I know that I threw God out of my life, and I will never deny that, and I am extremely grateful that I have actually realized that.

What are the next steps though, I sit here, in the silence, the more I pray, the quieter it gets. I’m at that moment where the silence is all I have, where God is all there is to lean on, He knows Im coming home, he knows what I have done, and he knows that I have made mistakes, but He knows that I am willing to change, and correct those wrongs, and turn them into rights. This silence is eating me alive, I trust that I will be lead in the right direction, but the thought of giving up my life is fearsome, it is terrifying. I’ve never ever had a moment like this when the silence is so loud that you can hear God knocking, you can hear the battle going on around you for your life. God is fighting off the demons in my life, and I can hear it, I can feel it, the tug-a-war over my heart, over my mind.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes, and I’ve made a lot of right choices, but God doesn’t care about either, he cares about the here, and the now, the willingness to let go, and let Him guide my life towards the great and fantastic plan that he has in store for me. It’s my responsibility to let Him take me, all of me, and mould me into what He wants me to be, what He has planned for my life. He is the great Healer, and the great Reconciler, He is the only one that can see the future, and without Him, I would be walking aimlessly through life, always leaving the best of me behind.

I was going through Youtube, listening to music, songs to help lift my spirits, and I don’t think there is a better one then Jeremy Camps: There Will Be A Day. The song can be used in so many different situations in life, no matter what is bringing you pain, no matter how bad things are, God promises His children, that there will be a day, where there is no more earthly pain, all the things of Earth, will be no more, God promises that there is a place, where you will be eternally that is free of pain, free of fear, free of the troubles that plague you on this planet.

It may seem like its not worth it now, but trust me when I say, that kicking God out of your life, takes away all that you think is good, without God, you will eventually feel the pain of this earth, if you take your own path, instead of allowing God to take control of your life and lead you, to that place, where the beauty makes the battle on earth worth it. He keeps his promises, if you keep yours, and I am ready, I am ready to step out of myself, and let God take control of me. Its not an easy thing to say, but it is something that is necessary, regardless of what I do, in this silence I hear God calling me, I see him waiting at the end of the road, in front of the house I left years ago, proclaiming I can do this on my own. He’s waiting with open arms, as long as I have an open heart, and after years of playing the game, my heart is open, and the silence though deafening, is a blessing.

There Will Be A Day: Jeremy Camp:

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will
wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery
this is why this is why I sing

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, he will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
There will be a day.